Ty Buckmaster

#16.0 Resistance Beat Me, Again

Today I meditated for 11 minutes and came up with a bunch of ideas for kick starting my writing for my website again as I have been extremely slack the last couple of months in producing articles.  

The ideas will form part of further posting of entries on this platform (the blog).

Furthermore, I have been incessantly procrastinating and delaying sitting down and putting in the work.  

For some reason there’s just this road block where in my head I know exactly what to do, how to do it and why I’m doing, but for some utterly frustrating reason I just don’t. 

I just do not. 

I don’t sit down and do the work.  

I have an enormous list of ideas of things that I want to get onto paper (or in a document).  

Except something so critical is missing.  

Starting!  

This leads me to my current situation, I woke up early this morning, had breakfast, rode my bike down to the beach and sat in silence for 10 minutes. 

Closed my eyes and concentrated only on the in and the out of my breathe.   

Don’t know why or how but that was all I needed to start writing.  

Once you write one single word you’ve beaten 90% of the battle.  

Opening a blank document or blank page, sitting down, no distractions, no other thoughts to guide you away, no social media, just yourself, the tool to which you construct the sentences and the letters which string them together.  

Finally, I had written another article, only took me 5 months of life to go flashing by to have another crack.  

As Steven Pressfield says, for this moment, for today, I beat Resistance.  

Unfortunately for me though, and for everyone else on this planet, it will show up again tomorrow.  

Until then I’ve done what I needed to and resistance can have a break.  

PS, just as I was publishing this article, I had to search for Steven’s URL to his website and ultimately reference his work, and in doing so, the first thing that shows on the webpage is the following screenshot below and in the cover image of the article.

It just totally sums up exactly what I have been experiencing for the last couple of months, and to tell you the truth it kills me inside to know that an external force plays and toys with everything that I am setting out to do in my life.

As a cliff-hanger, I have had some extensive but exceptionally purposeful conversations with a dear friend of mine that has helped me comprehend what I have been doing and how my priorities are not balanced. (I will reference him and the great things he’s involved with in there and below).

This will all be explained in my next entry, so please stick around as I attempt to try and move the circular motion of thoughts in my head, onto objective and externalized means (ie paper or electronic documents)… you know what I mean.

Thanks again

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